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He
clutched his shirt then as if grabbing his heart, and choked out, “It’s
all we have apart from each other—you’re my heart, Jamie…my heart…you
make it beat.” He wrapped his arms around here then, pulled her close
and continued, whispering into her ear, “This is a cold, cruel,
hate-filled world, but you have always given me hope…and the desire to
stay and make my little part of it better. I owe you everything—you are
everything…my life, my world, the reason why I smile. I don’t want to
leave tomorrow, but how can I not? So many have given everything…for
us…for this nation—can I do any less?”
“I
don’t have the answers, Caleb. I just know you’re leaving tomorrow. I
don’t know why this world is…why we have these miserable wars.”
“Greed,” he replied. “Certain people will always want what isn’t theirs.
I have to be honest with you…I look around this world and I don’t know
about God anymore. I used to think I knew, but I don’t anymore. The only
thing I’m sure about anymore is that I love you and want to spend my
every moment right here at your side, and it makes me angry I
can’t—because of some Goddamn maniacs.”
“Don’t, Caleb…don’t—it’s not worth it,” she said while rubbing his hands
with hers.
“Don’t they understand what they’re doing? Don’t they know how they’re
destroying lives? What makes them think they have the right?”
“Honey…stop…stop this. There’s nothing we can do but try and survive…try
and make it through.”
He
kissed her, then pulling back and looking into her eyes, said, “The only
thing I know for sure is that I love you and want to have you as my wife
forever.”
“I
love you too, and we’ll always be together…even when we are apart,” she
whispered while looking deep into his eyes and seeing the longing there.
They
made love then, right there on the couch…frantically, passionately,
desperate to hang on to each other and shut the world out. They both
knew it couldn’t be…because the world and its harsh realities always
demand…always crash in on those that least deserve the death and
destruction those realities bring. The fires of greed and hate can only
be quenched with the sacrifices of those that give and love. It has
always been—predictable as the tide—eternal as the vastness of
space…war, death, destruction, and the consumption of human flesh they
demand…will always be.
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